Saturday, June 30, 2007
what has gotten into me?i hate myself.i'm sorry kim.but i just cant stop saying dis.I HATE MYSELF.haishhhx.and. . . .i dont know why.i easily got angry.for no reason sometimes.and when i try to cool down.it just results to crying.urghhhs.what's happenning to me.and i'm throwing my temper to everybody.i dont know why.arghhhhhhhs! *screams*and omfg.I AM SOOO FAT.TOOOO FATTT!WHY?! WHY ME?WHY MUST I BE SO FAT?gawdd.i shouldnt eat.i embarrassed for myself.i'm short. and i'm heavy.which means i'm fat.dont u ppl get it?stop saying dat i look okay and perfectly fine.bcos i know deep inside.u ppl are saying i'm soooo fat.and soooo short.aku boncet. aku gemok.pahammmmm tak?gawddd, no wonder syahidah really hates herself.she is sooooo useless.pathetic shit.so long, and goodbye.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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12:37 AM
Friday, June 29, 2007
kim, please be online soon.haishhhx.okehhs.i'm having a headache.my gawdddd.i feel like puking.but heck, i wanna stay till kim comes online.omg, i just want to meet kim.pleeeaseee.haishhhhx.tmrw, nite cycling.sunday.. bro's family day carnival, and mr kamal's wedding.i'm soo tired.hrmms.and malay? still have performance task.shit la.grouped up with amirah, dayang, wani and nasrul.hrmmmms.really, i do hate myself.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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11:28 PM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
hellohhhhhhhs. ((:omg, i'm sorry i really cant post anything today.i'm soo damn fucking tired.i'm soooo sleepy.but i'm internet smsing kim. ((:hrmms.k, i have lots to post today.but too bad i'm just so lazy.so yeah, ferget about it.and today.of cos, i got bullied.how great! -.-"i got tickled by izan n kim.i got pinched by nic due to dat jinx game.gurrgghhhhs.history was funnn today. ((:n yeah, dats all.i'm really soooo sleepy.gdbyes. ((:' ' ' syakrazy-.
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11:38 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
hellohhhhhhhhhhhhs. ((:everything's fine now.except for my bike thing.shitty thing. urghs.k, i better stop.hrmmms, ferst day of school.funnnnnnn! ((:omg, i miss my 3e1.k, my bestie is still beside me.ahahaha, well, he got bullied.i keep on disturbing him, "ko jgn smpi aku cubit ..... ko.."ahahhah! well, but its all a joke.denn was talking crap with jep n nic.fun siaa. laughing like a mad girl.and dzul calling me pig snail.which is sipot babi. how great.bcos of my hair which i made a sipot.well, not me la.mom did it for me.awwwww, aku manje! hahah! ((:hrmmms, denn bla bla blahhs.malay class, fun la.sit beside amirah.long time nvr chit chat with her.denn reccess, ate nasi goreng which tina brought.denn yah, bla bla bla.i lazy to type.gagaga.after school, went over to elias mall.and yay! nelson blanje me mcdonalds!thanks abgggggggg!eat3.denn we walked home.slowly. and i'm sooooo sleepyyy.i laughed n laughed.and reached home.i went to sleep straight.yay! how nice. ahahah.wake up at 8+.okehhhhhs.and sorry to those if i vent my angers on you.cos yeah, i cn get really annoyed fast dis few days.mood swings. haisshx. i cant control them.and i'm having cramps.due to that thing.yeahh, some should know why.its annoying.i guess, dats all for today.oh shits la.wake up early again tmr.grrrghhs.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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9:34 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
hellohhhhs.
urghhhhhs!!!!!!
k, i'm really not okay.
well, actually everything went fine since ytd night.
everything was all fine.
thank god.
but unfortunately, today.
was another fucked up day. for me la.
arghhhhhhs! FUCK U ASSHOLE!
urghhhhs!
i just feel like screaming my lungs outttt!
okehhhs.
so, here's the thing.
everything was fine and happy today.
woke up, and bla blahs.
bathe, get ready, and mom tied my hair.
denn went going out, my earpiece spoilt.
its totally spoilt.
but somehow, sis was sooo clever and fixed it with tape and all.
denn, when i went out of house.
dats the thing which made me all soooo fucked up.
poooooof! my bike is gone.
ohhhhh, how great right.
urghhhhs.
my beloved bike, which i've used for so many years.
the bike which my bro used to ride.
arghhhhhhh!
knn laaaaa! fuck man.
ntah anak sundal mane ntah yg curik.
pala buto la! korg miskin sgt kepe siak.
nabey. sape yg curik tu basikal cnfm mati siang sak.
tgh naek basikal tu aleh2 kene langgar ngan lori ke.
jatoh dlm longkang ke.
tros mati on the spot.
urghhhs.
ohh, tk tk. biar mati slow2.
biar merane.
menyusahkn aku je!
nabey laaaa. puki ah siak.
aku sulakn pon bagos siak.
pala buto, tkde keje.
mudah-mudahan korg mati!
siak ah, aku mcm nk rembat sakkkk.
urghhhhs, k.
stoppit sya!
i'm starting to get more fucked up.
denn when want to go to tuition.
wait for dat 39 bus.
wad a fucked up bus.
sooooo damn fucking slow.
k, i better stoppit now!
ahhhhhh!
k ah, wanna go out soon.
want to go west plaza la.
want to find clip.
since school reopening soonnnn.
wtf, i'm soo not ready to wake up early.
and tmr, having pit.
at changi beach.
how great.
one day before school reopens. -.-"
and kwn2, jgn ajak sayer pergi cycling lagik eyh.bcos i totally have no mood for cycling.i'm off.omfg, i cant sms kim! urghs.sayer rindu hakim. ((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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8:52 PM
Friday, June 22, 2007
hellohhhs.i cant smile.i'm not feeling fine now.words cant describe wad i'm feeling.i'm soooo NOT OKAY.haishhhhx.nobody knows why.well, actually some knows why.but well, like as if they're feeling wad i'm feeling.it hurts.haishhx. i feel like i got nothing to post.cos i really cant think now.my mind's stucked.its blank.all i think about is...abt s'thing.which only nana and jep knows.but they dont know how much it hurts.hakim, i love you.always, and i promise i'll never leave you.keep dat in mind.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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7:54 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
stop me from crying.my god.i love u kim.i just cant post anything today.really.i'm sorry for those i've hurt.just leave me alone.
' ' 'syakrazy-.
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7:15 PM
Monday, June 18, 2007
hellohhhhhhs. ((:haishhhx.i'm soooo tired now.kind of sleepy.but i still wanna wait for kim to online.hrmmmms.i wonder wad he's doing now.haishhhhx.okehhhhhs.so today.woke up early in the morning.denn went to hospital.for mom's doctor appt.and its sooo blood-boiling.fucking irritating and annoying.we reached dere by 9+.and we went back by 4+ p.m.how great.and its soooo boring dere.till me and sis talked crappy stuffs and laughed like mad ppl.i sleep, listen to mp3, laugh loudly like nobody's business.soooo boring.till my stomach ache. urghs.hrmms yarhhs. and mom having a surgery on 5th july.haishhhx.
k, denn. went home.went online for a while.denn went back down.meet tinaaaaa. ((:did our homewerks and stuffs.denn we went to west plaza.photocopied the maths worksheet.denn we're off home.denn i did my usual exercise.and i'm now online.chatting with khalid.haishhhx. kim, whr are you?k, i guess i'm off now.i wanna bathe ferst.while waiting for kim to online.takecares.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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9:38 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
hellohhhhhhs. ((:hrmmmms.i dont know how to describe my mood now.i'm happy cos i ate lots of stuff today.i'm happy cos i dont have to sit and rot at home.i'm feeling kind of sad cos today's father's day.i'm feeling sad cos kim's not going online.i'm feeling sad bcos i didnt get to meet my pri sch gfs and bfs.omfg. stress laaaaas.haishhhhhx. ))':okehhhhs. so just now had tuitionn.omg, soooo boring. -.-"its pathetic.i'll try get used to it though.i just need gerald to make the class noisy.but too bad he's currently not in s'pore.was stayed back 30 mins late.all bcos of his own fault which he was late last wk.i was sooo hungry dat time.and i need to stay for another 30 mins.urghhhhs, aku gigit karang baru ko tau! grrrshhh.denn after tuitionn.lek2 at home.have some food.ice milo.denn went out with mom and sis.to whitesands.went to pasar mlm ferst.denn saw faten and atiqah.and denn went to ntuc, bought stuffs.denn went to mcd to have some food.k, denn we're off home by 8+.denn at home. i exercised. wooooo. ((;till i sweat like.. i dont know.ahahahahs.denn bro went home, so i ran into my room.cos... i was actually.nvmm. ehehheheh! ((;it shouldnt be revealed. =Xdenn now i'm just blogging and going online.but kim's not online.haishhhhx. )):and and. i also just went to my ifa laopo's blog.and omg, i watched the pictures she posted.the pictures of our pit held last monday.haishhhhx. ))': it seems soo funnnn!but too bad i wasnt dere.gawdddd. *sobs sobs*okehhs sya, stoppit!hrmmms, and dis wednesday.hrmmms. jadi? or tk jadi?contact me babes and dudes.i dont care.but i'll still be out anyways.cos its the last weeeeek of holidayyyys!omg, dats so fast.ohhh shit la. i sooo need to wake up early in the morning tmr.cos mom's having doctor appt.and me?dont even think i want to be left alone at home.gawddddd. -.-"gawd, i suddenly cried.and thanks dzul. thanks for caring.its sad. but i'm just still trying to control myself.yes, i miss my dad soo much.
hrmmmms. happy father's day anyway.hrmms.i'm off.i have nothing else to say.i need a bath.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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9:59 PM
hellohhhhhhs. ((:okehhhhhhs. tears of joy.i really thought he wasnt going online dis morning.bcos ytd night, he said he'll be going later at night.be he didnt.and he said he'll be online today at 10.so i really thought he already went offline.i was going like arghhhhhs! i just wanna chat with him.denn suddenly, he went online.ohhhhh, tears of joyyyyyy! ((':okays, didnt get to wait long for him ytd night.'cause my eyes is hurting.and its alr super red.so i gave up and force myself to sleep.hrmmms, alaaaaaa.having tuition today.omfg, its mr. izwan.i guess dats his name.he's sooooo boring.well, but mdm. shida saidhe's good.so i guess i just need to get used to him.urghhhs.i'm off.haishhhhhx.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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11:39 AM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
hellohhhhhhhhhhhhhs! ((:ouhkays. i'm super tired.but heck, i dont wanna slp.i wanna wait for kim to online.'cause tmr he's not going online.hrmmmmms. ))':wad a sad sad sad day tmr.okehhhhs. didnt post yesterday.did i? hrmms. i dont know.i fergettttt. and i'm lazyy to check.and YAY! kim's online now!yippppeee!okay sya, stoppit!back to my story. hehehhe.hrmms, basically. i have nothing to post today.'cause nothing really happened.well, nothing happened.ahahhaha, aku gilerkkkkks. ((;just dat i went to tuition, received an invitation card.for mr. kamal's wedding which will be on 1st july.okays, kim's back offline. -.-"but he say he'll be back online later.so, i'll be waiting.okays, back to story.hrmmmmms.i'm kind of fucked up today.just bcos of the rain laaaa.it rains on the day i'm wearing skirt and without jacket.and its a very warm day when i'm wearing jeans n jacket.urghhhs, and its freaking cold just now.okays.denn after tuition, went online.did my maths homewerk.and i'm done with it. yay!!left dat english homewerks which the teachers give pathetic instructions on how to do it.ohhhh, hate it.denn denn, slackeddddd.and denn, bro gave me and sis 10 bucks each.well, actually he only wanna give 10 bucks to sis.bcos sis was the one who styled his hair just now.but denn, i asked for 10 bucks for myself.bro said he got no reason to give me the money.but i said back dat he was using my comb and hairbrush.and my gel.sooo, i got 10 bucks.wheeeehs! ((:denn me and sis went to whitesands.went to bengawan solo, to buy my fave. kueh lapis.denn to KFC, to buy my fave. cheese fries.denn we went to pasar mlm.bought otak2, keropok lekor, cempedak goreng.and i dont know wad else.you see, i spent most of my money on food.the more i wanna go on a diet.the more i want to eat. furthermore, if i have loads of money. ((:okays. i'm really trying my best to stop eating.and exercise more.yay! so dat i can be slim.bcos, i am just tooo FAT.well, i panicked dat day looking myself into the mirror.please please please, stop me from eating.and when school reopens.i dont wanna eat during reccess time.and i wanna save the money to buy something else.ferstly, dat black jeans at bugis.then, dat shorts at surfers paradise.and i wanna buy new clothes.also jacket. plus slippers.not forgetting, something for someone. ((;wowwww, i actually got loads of stuffs i wanna buy.ohhhhh, broke broke broke.aku stressss!!!well, i dont care.as long as i can get thin, super thin.yeahhh. ((:i'm going crazyyy! wakaka.okays, i'm sooo gonna get tired on 1st july.cos 30th june i'll be having nite cycling till the next morning.and dat is 1st july.and denn on dat day i'll be having dat wedding invitation thingy.also tuitionnn.ohhh, greatt. -.-"and babes, SQMF outing whenn?last wk of hols alr. i wanna mit u gfs. ((:eventhough i'm kind of broke. -.-"and ohh yarh, about the drama camp.i missed my pri sch pit.how great. i just wanna see my gfs and bfs.and i missed it due to the camp.but heck, camp's fun though. ((:andd wowww, i actually got loads of stuff to type.i didnt realise dat.i'm off.still waiting for kim to online.omfg, i miss him.i just need to see him.but when?gawdddd, 1 more wk till school reopens.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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11:54 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
hellohhhhs peepos.sry for not updating for quite a while.mon to wed i'm having drama camp in school.hrmms. i'm feeling kind of tired now.but heck, i dont wanna go to sleep.i wanna wait for kim to online.if theres still internet connection laaaa.hrmms, okehhhs.i totally miss the drama camp.yes, its fun. super funnnnnnn. ((:even when its super tiring.and of cos, the night time.or easy, everything.sooo funn.the games, drama session.the peeps, the debating session, the movie night.for movie we watched the chronicles of narnia.andd tina was going like, 'syahidah emosi'.because i cried when the part the lion died.my tears was rolling down non-stopp.ahahaha.and the water warfare game.and playing the pipe in the toilet with farah and atiqah till we get soaked wet.the vampire game, which me, atiqah, faten, farah, kendra and dzul hid at the stairs at the art block.and i fell asleep as i lay my head on dzul's leg.farah was alr asleep dere.and they cant find us for the first round. ahahaha.and me, atiqah, faten, farah, nic and fadhil went to the backstage of the hall in the dark.me and atiqah was holding our hands togeder tightly.and nic named it the 10 seconds memories at the backstage.being in the same room as tina, faten, atiqah and kendra.denn denn denn at night we're all not sleeping.we walked around the school.did some stuffs.denn hanging out at the canteen with the guys.running away like mad ppl when given false alarm dat teacher was coming.hanging out at the guys room.talking on the phone with kim late at night.till kim talked alone bcos i was half-asleep and didnt realise i was actually on the phone.ahahah! ((:having supper in our rooms.eating chocolates, belgian chocs and all, the snacks.playing cards, telling stories of our life.sharing ghost stories.watching bedtime stories.killing the cockroach.having mdm chua and farah as the lifesaver.omg, its just so funnnnn.and also sitting with norsah, cheryl, fatah, farah, atiqah during break time in the canteen.and laughing like a mad person with cheryl.hearing cheryl burping non-stop.and also tina farting.ahahaha, i miss the times laaa.seeing them mosh in the room.okehhs, i better stop about camp.ahahah, 'cause the story is just too long.awwww, i missed it.and now, still waiting for kim to online.kim ohhhh kim, whr are you..???i'm off peepos.' ' 'syakrazy-.absence makes the heart grows fonder.
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10:52 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
hellohhhhhhhhs. ((:i fucking miss kim.ohhhh, whatever.i just wanna see him.pleeeaaseee.pretty pretty please.okehhs. i did most of my homework alr.wheeeehs!sya good girl.and and and. . . .tmr going out.having tuition from 3-5 p.m.and after dat going home ferst.denn going for aqilah's chalet.hrmmms, i wanna eat eat eat. ((;okay, aku dah ngantok.and readers, i'll not be posting for the next few days.from monday to wednesday i'll be having drama camp.and sooo, i'm off peepos.goodbyes.goodnights and sweet dreams.takecares. ((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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12:55 AM
Monday, June 04, 2007
hellohhhhhhs. ((:hrmms. i'm super tired.well, went to cycling with nic and aniahh.met them under my void deck.denn we cycle around.denn saw my sweetie feeza dearestt.she's in bus no. 17.awwwww, i miss herr.okays, denn we went to pasir ris interchange.nic bought his strawberry blended or whatever it is.and aniahh bought her mango ice blended.yummy laaaas.
hrmmms, i miss kim.i miss him alot.i miss him like crazy.i can go crazy like dis.urgghhhhs!okays, i'm going out again tmr.to hospital dis time.visiting people.ohhhhh, haishhhx.i'm off.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:05 PM
hellohhhhhhhhhhhhhhs. ((:hrmms, didnt post yesterday.cos i'm lazy. and i'm lazy.ahahah.okays.hrmmms.and today, i'm oh-so-bored.went online just now.kim's online.but when i was just about to say hellohhhhs.he went offline.how great! -.-"nvm, since i have nth to do.i'll just do my maths homework now.i need to finish it a.s.a.p.cos later i'll be going out.cycling! wheeeeehs!with my usual peeps.i heard maybe me, kim, nic, atiqah, aniah, aini.eyhhhh..?i dont know laaa.i'll know later.i'm just gonna revise and do my homework ferst.denn i bathe.denn i eat.and i'm out meeting them!yay!i hope its a fun today!i'm off.i'm trying to be studious. ((;' ' 'syakrazy-.
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12:56 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
hellohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs. ((:hrmms, i'm tiredd.super tiredd plus sleepyy.i'm lethargic. ahahahs.i guess i'll just go to sleep straight after dis.*yawns*okays, had funn todayy.nana came my house.denn i siapp2, and we went out.took 89 to whitesandds.denn walk2.denn meet kim.denn went to wait for the restt.hrmmms, see if i cn rmb who.hrmms, farah, rashid, aida, min.i dont know if the spelling of the names are correct.denn we relax2, walk2 aroundd.denn went to carpark A.ahahha, funn.watched them played soccer.well, actually i'm in it too.only i'm kind of lazy to get involvedd.ahahah, even nana joined in. eventhough she's wearing skirt. denn hadi came by, joining in.i just play slack2.its damn hot. but i'm only sweating a lil'.ehehheh.denn after dat, we went to downtown.went to KFC.denn we each bought our food.i shared cheese fries with nana.denn we went seperate ways.and took 89, and we're home.but aww, nana went home alr.hrmmms, i'm boredd.not shure if tmr going out.i'm tired.maybe i'll cancel it.or postpone it to another day.denn tmr will be my slacking day at home.and maybe i'm gonna some some studies.hrmmmmmms, sya wanna be a good girl. ((;i'll just postpone tmr's outing.'cause i'm oh-so-tired!well, now.i'm bored and super sleepy.i dont think i'll be online till late night.as kim wont be online anyway.he's at chalet.hrmmmmms.i just love today. ((:okay friends.i'm off.gd night and sweet dreamms.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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7:44 PM
